RoadTripping to Seattle

THE BASICS:
Appleton, WI to Seattle, WA approximately 1,941 miles or 28.5 hours with no stops


First if you are interested to accompany me on this adventure you must be available around the date of August 20, 2011.

Also, it would be preferred if you were not prone to road sickness however who am I to judge since I have the occasional bout myself.

Non-negotiable Requirements: ability to legally leave the state of WI/cross state lines, must love chex mix, ability to take a semi-decent picture in a moving car/through a windshield, willingly avoid all chains foods that exist in WI/eat at local establishments

Suggested Qualifications: ability to drive a car or keep full time driver alert, protect tent from potential bear attacks, acceptable music choices, own a GPS device

If interested contact Annie!

*I reserve the right to modify application at anytime.
** As a semi-seasoned road-tripper much of this application was created through experience.

Life is good.

ONE YEAR

... LATER... words that describe who I have been: ashamed green-eyed hurt revenge-filled hopeless lonely introspective scared broken...

I left this blog on a bitter not note too long ago. I was filled with bitterness and knew I had to look within myself to heal. Today I celebrate. I may not know where my journey leads but I do know that I am not standing idle on the road.

If I was honest...

If I was being honest I would scream at you "son of a bitch" or "f***ing bastard". However I don't want to insult your mom. It isn't her fault that you chose to be this person. I am sure she wouldn't take credit for raising you, but who am I to speculate. Love is unconditional, right?

Rather than curse you, perhaps I should thank you. Without your friendship I may never have felt utter disgust, let alone unleashed hatred. Truth be told, I recognize that if you never turned out to be the asshole that you are I may have made excuses on your behalf for a very long time. It would have been a free invitation to walk all over me whenever your heart desired.

What's unfortunate for me, it that I still picture a piece of goodness inside of you. I hope without reason that you will come to your senses. I wait for that small hidden spark to ignite, but you will not give it a chance.

So please, find happiness, I wish that for you, my friend. Yet secretly, if I am honest, I want you to hurt too.

ramblings....

It is funny how sometimes I feel that my life parallels that of the clients at work. Only hours ago I was discussing "growing pains" with a teenager at work and now although I have surpassed my teenage years by quite a bit, I feel those growing pains. Life is hard, sometimes we have to learn the lessons over and over again, I counseled the client. We all make mistakes, but have to pick up and learn from them. It is not easy, but it makes us stronger and better. Wow. It's my turn to learn that lesson again. I may have messed up and matters are much more complicated but sometimes in life there are no re-dos. Sometimes in life people don't forgive or allow for mistakes. It's a one time shot. I was convinced that the expression fool me once, shame on you fool me twice shame on me was the route to take. Now I am not so sure. In my anger I hurt someone who, regardless of if they cared about me, I cared about.

I was angry and hurt. Friendship in my book is a two way street. I need you and you need me. I got pushed aside, regardless of the reason. I began to see all the cracks in the side walk, I realized that I lost my value, that I was used, questioned if I was taken advantage of and now I realize my true mistake is that I, not matter what the excuses, didn't push for myself. I didn't say, HEY, what you are doing is effecting me.

I needed you, and I felt like you weren't there. Would things have been different if yelled to get your attention?

My Dahlia

The Bridge To Sunset