Beginings...

Why, Why, Why?

You know that expression curiosity got the cat? Yeah, that one? Well I'm the cat and I got gotten. Sometimes I make dumb decisions. Yes, it's true. Against all better judgment I did something stupid. All making me wonder how come five years later my heart still flutters? That life would have been a horrible mess! All leading back to Why, Why, Why?

the little things...

Some days it is hard to motivate myself to do anything. Let's be honest, I don't have anyone depending on me so I can lead a lazy and selfish life if I want to! Well at least for a few days at a time. So here is a list of the little things that I did for me on this cloudy, rainy, dreary day.
*boiled some corn on the cob
*peaked on the momma and 3 baby robins growing on my back porch (I like to keep an eye on them)
*watched people on TABOO drink their own urine, gagged but didn't look away or fast forward
*spent over an hour at the laundry mat... love seedy places and clean laundry
*laughed with friends (thanks Jen, Nick, and Kenzie)
*played with Gabby- hands down my favorite baby in the whole world
*smelled the lilacs
*cleaned the bathroom with all eco-friendly products


I sat down at my computer thinking my day was kind of pathetic, but now am changing my mind. I can find the good in just about everything and my day off was well deserved and lived very simply. And that's not a bad day!

Grrr

hmm

Why buy the cow when you get the milk for free?

What if the cow doesn't want to be bought?

True Confesssion

I was feeling a bit sad about my life and this is the thought that ran through my head "I wish I could just fast forward through my life and get to the nursing home part where all my friends are living next door again and there are organized activities." Then of course I thought how sad that thought really was, but almost immediately I laughed out loud and realized only I can find the silver lining in old age!

Opposites

My latest life lessons...

Sometimes life sucks, plain and simple. I am on an upward swing after a rough few months and a friend recently asked me [what the heck was he thinking?] for advice when dealing with a difficult situation. After my response flowed from me I realized that I might be on to something and decided to share:

First things first... take one day at a time. Avoid thinking about the future- it just becomes a vast space of emptiness that overwhelms and depresses you. Today is what matters, the future will take care of itself with very little worrying and obsessing by you.

Secondly- know what you truly want (as well as you can) sometimes what you think you want isn't what you really want but it just what you've been telling yourself. It seems confusing but really is IT, (or that person) really making you happy or are you telling yourself that you should be happy?

3rd... you are never alone, ever. It may take a couple phone calls, but someone will always talk to you, laugh with you and cry with you whether its family, friends or in a pinch a pet.

I have been accused on more than one occasion of being a talking Hallmark card and this could very well be yet another example of my corniness. However this is what got me through and maybe it will help someone else.

A start

Truth be told I am no creative genius and I certainly am not claiming to be… “How To Be Annie” was the first title that blogger accepted. I had a short list of what I thought to be divinely inspired titles but after several rejections I honestly just gave up. Yes, sometimes I am just lazy and other times easily defeated.

I was tempted to share the exciting, well maybe only to me, stories of my birth to start this blog off right. But really, who is interested in a story that centers around my mother’s nether regions? See really not a taker in the whole bunch.

And so, ( a common, yet grammatically incorrect phrase that my Aunt Inez uses to begin many of her sentences) here I am again trying to find a beginning. Yet maybe that is the whole point. The beginning has moved on and here I am.