Well, Miss "I Love Keens", since I no longer believe in getting the last word, and who got the best of who...it takes a big man to admit that they were wrong. I was wrong. I blew it, big time. As I descended the staircase at the Appleton Library today, and I noticed a familiar looking figure returning some items to the drop boxes. Very attractive, and, like I said, very familiar looking.
As I slowly descended the stairs, an old familiar feeling of cowardice over came me, a failure of nerve. I didn't want to be spotted by you, so I thought I could avoid being seen. As I made my way to the DVD aisle, I noticed you were still at the front counter talking to a librarian, and I did hear your distinctive voice, in hushed tones. I'm sure we made quasi-eye contact, but again, my attempts at remaining incognito probably didn't work.
If I had any guts, I would have approached you, but I thought twice because I didn't think I wanted to face whatever reaction you might have had. As they say, no guts, no glory. I take it your silence nowadays is probably rooted in practicality and emotions. My own fears about meeting you, were at times, completely unfounded and ridiculous. I guess seeing you, even from some kind of daydreaming angles, confirmed my first gut instincts about you. That you are a wonderful person, with so much to offer the world, and so many positive qualities. I'm pretty certain you won't respond to this, and I'm sure you have your reasons.
Whatever is going on in your personal life, I hope you are happy. I'm sure that being a positive, strong person as you are, this is no problem. Whatever future relationships you are in with guys, I will be eternally jealous.
When people say to me, "Everything happens for a reason", I have a hard time believing that. But maybe they're right. I think the lack of communication with you is the most frustrating aspect of all this, because that was one more bridge I didn't want to burn. This could have all been a dream, but I wanted to acknowledge it. It was good getting to know you, from the little time we shared personal stories and so forth, and I hope you also acknowledge that I'm not all bad. Take care of yourself. I could have fallen in love, but I was too scared
Well, Miss "I Love Keens", since I no longer believe in getting the last word, and who got the best of who...it takes a big man to admit that they were wrong. I was wrong. I blew it, big time. As I descended the staircase at the Appleton Library today, and I noticed a familiar looking figure returning some items to the drop boxes. Very attractive, and, like I said, very familiar looking.
ReplyDeleteAs I slowly descended the stairs, an old familiar feeling of cowardice over came me, a failure of nerve. I didn't want to be spotted by you, so I thought I could avoid being seen. As I made my way to the DVD aisle, I noticed you were still at the front counter talking to a librarian, and I did hear your distinctive voice, in hushed tones. I'm sure we made quasi-eye contact, but again, my attempts at remaining incognito probably didn't work.
If I had any guts, I would have approached you, but I thought twice because I didn't think I wanted to face whatever reaction you might have had. As they say, no guts, no glory. I take it your silence nowadays is probably rooted in practicality and emotions. My own fears about meeting you, were at times, completely unfounded and ridiculous. I guess seeing you, even from some kind of daydreaming angles, confirmed my first gut instincts about you. That you are a wonderful person, with so much to offer the world, and so many positive qualities. I'm pretty certain you won't respond to this, and I'm sure you have your reasons.
Whatever is going on in your personal life, I hope you are happy. I'm sure that being a positive, strong person as you are, this is no problem. Whatever future relationships you are in with guys, I will be eternally jealous.
When people say to me, "Everything happens for a reason", I have a hard time believing that. But maybe they're right. I think the lack of communication with you is the most frustrating aspect of all this, because that was one more bridge I didn't want to burn. This could have all been a dream, but I wanted to acknowledge it. It was good getting to know you, from the little time we shared personal stories and so forth, and I hope you also acknowledge that I'm not all bad. Take care of yourself. I could have fallen in love, but I was too scared
Love,
Doug